Okay, I’m going to come right out and say this cheesy thing that sometimes runs through my mind. I am a radiant being. This is not to say that I am radiant and some other people are dull. I suspect that we are all radiant. In any case, that’s not the point of this post. This is the point. I want to believe that what I do for money is just one aspect of who I am, and what makes me valuable in this life.
On some levels, intellectually I suppose, I know this to be the case. I’m a father, and a darn good one if I may be so brash as to say so myself. I identified myself as a father (in training) before I even touched a computer (and 20 some years before I had my first child). I’m a husband, and I think I do well at that too. I’m also a semi-lousy (but motivated) guitarist, an avid amateur philosopher, bicyclist, activist, community organizer.
So really I shouldn’t need the external validation of my website stats to tell me that I’m valued for more than my technical prowess. So why do I keep checking, and being disappointed?
At dinner tonight, my wife reminded me that people probably don’t go Googling “Being your Best Self” as often as they Google “free kindle,” but when I saw these stats… well it bummed me out. At least until I realized that being radiant isn’t about other people seeing your light, its about emitting radiance. So I’m just going to keep on emitting, and ya’ll can go ahead and read those kindle posts if that’s your thing. Maybe you’ll check out the real me, maybe not.
What makes you feel radiant? Is it your day job, playing with your kids, solving a tough problem, playing music? Don’t be afraid of being cheesy, I’m obviously not 
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I have some days when I feel like I tackle all of my problems effortlessly. Then there are other days when I find the answer to a tough problem thats been vexing me. Other days its when I get home from work and Bennett is there waiting for me with a big smile saying “Daddy”. That probably tops them all I think.
On another note, do your statistics take into account RSS feeds? Because thats how I keep track. Keep up the good work, I’m finding the posts interesting, even if I don’t own a kindle
. The blogging concept reminds of when I had a radio show in college. You never knew if anyone was even listening. You just sat in a room, talking into a microphone, playing music, and it all just went out into the world.
Making stuff- from crafty to cooking (well not boring food, but certainly fancy dinners and bread and cakes and ice cream and muffins for Sunday)
I must say Vick, you look radiant when you’re crafting and cooking! I’m so in love with you!